The Absence Of Sex In A Shameless Widow

My soulmate died of Cancer over 4 years ago. It was sudden and unexpected with under 3 months from diagnosis to death. My whole life changed overnight and I was of course completely devastated. My grief has not been linear. It has been broadly in 2 separate periods, delayed by my Bipolar Disorder, primarily episodesContinue reading “The Absence Of Sex In A Shameless Widow”

Bipolar Disorder: Grieving Your Lost Self, Your Past Pain and What Might Have Been

A follow up post to “Who Put Razor Blades In The Ice cream”               When I was a child I wanted to be an actress. I was talented. I had done it since I was about 5. I had good feedback from drama teachers and was in a local amateur drama group where I alwaysContinue reading “Bipolar Disorder: Grieving Your Lost Self, Your Past Pain and What Might Have Been”

Who Put Razor Blades In The Ice Cream-My Bipolar Journey

Ice Cream, Smarties and Holidays-A Happy Childhood?             I was born in 1975 and grew up in the calm and beautiful countryside, one of 3 daughters of 2 striking but relatively normal, extremely kind and nurturing parents with no history of abuse or trauma or significant loss. My parents were loving, as were my sisters,Continue reading “Who Put Razor Blades In The Ice Cream-My Bipolar Journey”