Month: Jan 2020

  • The Absence Of Sex In A Shameless Widow

    My soulmate died of Cancer over 4 years ago. It was sudden and unexpected with under 3 months from diagnosis to death. My whole life changed overnight and I was of course completely devastated. My grief has not been linear. It has been broadly in 2 separate periods, delayed by my Bipolar Disorder, primarily episodes […]

  • Bipolar Disorder: Grieving Your Lost Self, Your Past Pain and What Might Have Been

    A follow up post to “Who Put Razor Blades In The Ice cream”               When I was a child I wanted to be an actress. I was talented. I had done it since I was about 5. I had good feedback from drama teachers and was in a local amateur drama group where I always […]

  • Who Put Razor Blades In The Ice Cream-My Bipolar Journey

    Ice Cream, Smarties and Holidays-A Happy Childhood?             I was born in 1975 and grew up in the calm and beautiful countryside, one of 3 daughters of 2 striking but relatively normal, extremely kind and nurturing parents with no history of abuse or trauma or significant loss. My parents were loving, as were my sisters, […]